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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
my cca is the chinese instrumental orchastra.....
i am a pipa player.....
i am the sectional leader of my section....
the section runs ok, thanks to my pal, Chee yee.....
although she don't really know but i am really grateful to have her around to help out.....
but there is a little hiccup....
there is this sec 2 girl from my section....
honestly she is the weakest among all....
but who would ever have the heart to tell that stright to a sec 2 girl like her??.....
okok....
i know she does not have a bad attitude from the start but i thought i could change that.....
i told her to bring the spare instrument home to practise so that she could be ready for her performance.....
she insisted on having no hands to carry the instrument for 3 weeks because she needs to bring home her art file....
after a while...
she cried....
i am lost....totally lost.....
luckily..... yi zhen tried to help... but she cried more....
so Mrs Henery saw and questioned why....
i couldn't beliveve it....
she came up with an even lame excuse...
my home no place to put the instrument.....
and she even throw temper at Mrs Henry....
my gooddness... does she know who she is.....
but she was not allowed to bring home the instrument.... she dosen't care....
i am not sure how should i be feeling now....
i am angry that she does not have ownership of CIO....
i am not pleased that she dosen't even respect a teacher....
but....
i feel very bad about myself that i made her cry....
i don't think i am in any position to ask her to practice more in the first place........
i think that i was too hard and was over pressing to make her bring it home....
maybe i should not have told her off in front of the team.....
i think maybe i was in the wrong....
i really don't know how to feel towards this problem....
or maybe i was to timid to tell her properly....
or maybe i am NOT FIT to be a sectional leader.....
i think....
i am really have no leadership skills and potential at all.....
i think i am not the person i think i am....
``kath ; 8:56 PM